2017 I’m not going to lie you were a shit year. My health was turned upside down and at the end, my best friend in the whole world was put to sleep after 10 years. Looking back I struggle to think of good things that happened. Obviously, I know good things happened the bad just push those to the back of my mind. I spent the whole of 2017 seeing nurses, doctors, consultants and specialists. It was all for the best but I would have rather not done it. Losing my dog was the most heartbreaking thing I have ever been through in my life. It’s been nearly 3 months now and I still miss Benson every day and I will continue to miss him for the rest of my life, I don’t cry anymore. Instead, I get up in the morning, look at his picture and say hello and at the end of the night I do the same but say goodnight, it helps. Peggy my cat has been great, making us all laugh and doing naughty things she shouldn’t do, but it’s needed, she’s amazing.
The pictures I’ve chosen for this post don’t really go but I was happy. These were taken in Cuba in December and I felt content for the first time in 2017. I was comfortable. I wasn’t stressed and I wasn’t hurting too much, but that was because I was taking it easy and resting.
2018 Please, please, please, please be better. Help me get this chronic illness under control. Help me be more positive. I really want this to be my year. I want to succeed in blogging, I want to succeed in my job, I just want everything to get better. I’ve been telling myself that I will be more positive. Even though at the moment life isn’t great I’m going to make it the best I can be. I have the most amazing boyfriend and family and cat. My life isn’t shit. I need to take more time out to focus on me. I want to look after myself better, maybe start doing yoga or meditation at home. I want to read more. I want to start bullet journaling. I want to travel. I want to improve my photography. I just want to become a better person and just be me.
In a few days, I want to figure out some goals for this year, nothing too complicated just simple ones that I can work towards.